Tradition 13
(Which states...)
This is to the truth
The one I have to see
About the dimwitted half shit
That's handed down to me
My family doesn't exist anymore
Though I'm told that's all my fault
And if I ever wish to see my son
I'd "twelve step it to a H.A.L.T."
When "wait a minute"
I don't do drugs
I barely ever drink
and it's been
(let's see)
My whole life,
most of its
Been this way
so it's "jist"
"you who are free?"
Advice is so golden as it rings
In my ears
Across the years, my tears, yes, several beers
I've been through
Spell out my misfit misery
Momma lost my Dad
He died when I was three
From there it was
"all unfair" to her
And began mistreating me
Found a Dad for her next kids
Though
One with some green dough
So then I just was shut out
Excuses brought to throw
His fists what came about
From him soon to know
Two more half siblings
Brought up to just hate
and implore me to woe
With the news that
abhors me
That I'm a "mentally ill homeless addict"
and that's what needs to be
Known
I've had it it's lack of tact shit
Now that I'm a fully grown ass man
Halfway my route to Hell
Or heaven
What I hope
Who is left with the promise
"Never will you see him..."
Because of the dope
My only son
I don't do
Did
Didn't
Won't
And will
Lose I lost
My little lost lamb
Now it's up to him
And he's been taught I ain't his man
Not from now or to begin with
My grown ass son kept forever from me
my plans
For life all killed unfairly
Though I sought and fought
fucked fair and lee
Like a fucking detachable limb
I never get to be
With
Not Ever
Not him
When it comes to Mom, Dad, Bro, Sis, Son
or all the others you see...
They are "...all doing well and just fine without" me
Maybe I should just find new ones, you know?
Make it cover!
They'll grow on me
Ducks in a row
Only they'll be made of rubber
Cause it's only gonna change
When I act
"more like another..."
When I become a new..."person"
Like there's something about my character
which is a
default aversion
Faulty, flawed and fatally wrong
I'm also bad with dogs
And quick as shit in song
So I'm thick on the upswing
To stay up and got stuck
in the upbringing
The before hell times
I've had because
Fuck
That's my childhood, you know?
But that's just a bullshit lie
The whole thing now goes
Like an obstacle to just fly
And just ditch all of my memories
Because they don't mean shit
It's a grand travesty
That they don't care about
Me (Shit)
They got their money
Their planes
Their retirement
Their symphonies
Their income streams
Their investments
Their ties
Their instruments they are playing
They've got their rich lies
When I ain't got shit
Not enough to live on
No lie
Dogged by 'em too
Fuck it and them gone
For who knows who
Their lives never mattered
Not in this song
As far as we can do
Here's the part that's whole heartedly half whit to quit
That it's all on me
The whole damn misery
Is completely non descript
With all that blame
That I'm always the one
Deserving this game
"I fucked them all so bad and (fake) legit"
That they are all so happy to
"call me quits"
Not for real
What they are saying
Over whiskey, wine, and tea
"That fucked up addict"
who fucked them up was me
So you fucked me, family like a
13th step whore
What you wanted you got
Left me broken hearted, lost and poor
That was me left in debt
That it's all on me
When the fault is
all fucking yours
With all that blame
Slammed the doors
My opportunities you sold
Just to look good on paper
To the news you broadcast
The dogwalker, and the neighbor
That I'm always the one
Deserving this game
Not deserving my name
The one I got adopted to...
Like "hey fuck you!"
I fucked them all so bad legit
That they are all so happy to call me quits
When I never did nothing
Never got the chance
Like last dance with Mary Jane
And I got picked to chance
So you fucked me, family like a 13th step hooker
What you wanted you got
Which is me left to snooker
Its me left in debt
To make it all up to you?
Missed holidays, vacations, gatherings, weddings, funerals too?!
Fuck you
YOU'RE the fucking unfit misfits
You got what you wanted
And that's me to blame
To forever be haunted
So forever let it be known
You ain't playing my game
It's yours
You make the rules
You call the shots
You make me a fool
You public my shame
๐ต"Our lives coulda been so nice"๐ต
But my family gone and fucked it all up๐ต
๐ตThat's why Daddy don't fuck with them ever๐ต
๐ต"That's why Daddy don't fuck with your Momma..."
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